NaDiA Da Gr8

Pekakkan telinga tebalkan hati

2012-01-29T12:27:00.000+08:00

When you see me laughing my ass off when people make fun of me, it doesn’t mean that I feel the same on the inside.

I didn’t know that my failed purple wedding was some kind of joke to other people.

I didn’t know that lelemaks covering my body was some kind of nuisance to other people.

So what if I am a divorcee?

So what if I’m fat?

If you don’t wish to see the beast in me, do stop saying nasty things about me.

Bile lidah berkata-kata..

2012-01-04T15:49:00.002+08:00

Skrg sibuk org dok kate Amalina ni rosak la hapela itula inila.. ok,maybe sometimes aku pon termasok dlm golongan ni.. golongan “mengata org,die yg lebey”.. but bile tersedar tu cpat2la insaf.. ye,I know mulut sdri.. kdg2 mcm longkang mengata org tp I also know that sometimes I’m much worse than those ppl yg aku kutuk.. mode:sedar diri..

Tp based on my observation, reasons why we condemn other people is because we think we are perfect. For example, kite pakai tudung,n org sebelah kite x pakai tudung n pakaian sedikit seksi.. makanye akan terkeluarlah persepsi yg org sebelah kite tu knpem x dara,kaki clubbing,minum arak etc.. tp walhalnye ko pkai tudung,tp bijik dh terbarai.. n ntah2 ppuan yg ko kutuk tu masih terpelihara daranye..

My point is bukan utk menyokong benda yg salah,tp ialah untuk muhasabah diri supaya kurangkan mencaci,mengata n kutuk org lain (ye sy tgh nasihat diri sdri).. sbb kalu org dikutuk itu hnyla seksi pd luaran,tp mungkin dlm hatinye ade taman.. so bile org dikutuk itu berubah ke jalan Allah,org dikutuk itu akan cantik luar dan dalam.. n bukan mcm ppuan bertudung yg hny bertudung di luaran tp dlm hati ade loji taik.. paham x?

Lg satu kisah,few weeks ago I showed some pics of a really hot Malaysian blogger to two of my male friends,yg sorg tu pas tgk trus die caci maki blogger tu.. kate blogger hodohla burukla etc.. smpai aku rase over2 plak mamat tu kutuk.. kenapa die kutuk? Sbb ppuan tu seksi.. yg lg sorg plak kate,ppuan tu cantik,tp lg cantik kalu die reserve kan body parts die utk suami die.. sodap sket telinga dgr.. compared to mamat yg 1st tu.. kalu takat luaran,ppl can change la deyy.. yg parah tu kalu part dalaman yg buruk..

I do have friends yg clubbing,tp x minum n x amalkan seks bebas etc.. n I also hv friends yg pkai tudung tp balek dating tudung senget2 n leher penuh gigitan setan.. pastu bangga cerita teknik yg baru dipelajari..Like I said before, am not trying to say that pakai tudung tu jahat n kite septtnye kne jd seksi.. bukan mcm tu.. tp it’s how you carry yourself.. luaran kite ley adjust,tp kalu dalaman tu yg teruk,kan susah nk adjust..

Problems with these people is they tend to feel riak.. mrk yakin yg syurga tu dlm genggaman n hell is a definite utk mrk yg seksi ni.. pintu taubat kan terbuka utk semua org.. I used to be someone yg pakaiannye seperti tidak cukup kain,but skrg dh pkai tudung.. cume dalaman je masih dlm proses pembersihan.. n semoga niatku akan dipermudahkan Allah.. kdg2 aku pn slalu gak kutuk2 org, ngumpat sane ngumpat sini without realizing that I am no different with those yg aku kutuk.. so if u see me or hear me mengata sana sini pls tegur.. or jgn layan. Nnt pepandaila aku sedar sdri.. hik hik..

So utk isu amalina ni jd seksi etc xyahla korg nk kepoci kepoci sgt.. ada mata pandang,ada telinga dgr, ada mulut diam.. kutuk2 die pon,at least die pandai.. ko ape ade? Bek doakan die berubah ke jalan baik.. at least dpt pahala..

Gunakanlah ilmu agama yg dirasakan dh penuh sgt di dada tu utk membimbing mrk yg kurang bernasib baik.. n bukan utk mendabik dada riak.. Adakah anda confirm yg takkan ade anak cucu anda berperangai sedemikian? Yakin? Dulu aku xde anak,so x pk sgt.. skrg aku ade anak,so kalu boley xnakla ckp ank org.. nnt kne kat anak sdri,naya je.. Nauzubillah..

Rojak Karim 2

2011-12-27T14:57:00.000+08:00

Too many things running through my mind and I don’t know which one i should write first. So I ended up not to write any entry. Or in other words, M-A-L-A-S.

So I’ll just wrap up everything in one entry.

Firstly,

I just got myself a new job. It doesn’t pay much and my salary will be less rm50 compared from what PIQS paid me. But I don’t mind because I heard that this company is way more stable and they pay OT and mileage monthly. 

Now I’m having all this volcano eruption in my stomach whenever I realize that I have to submit my resignation letter to my boss. I don’t know about you guys, but I usually have this weird symptom like perut memulas, nak muntah bagai morning sickness and guilty as if I just made company rugi rm9.5 billion when I want to submit surat benti kerja.

Walhal, it’s as simple as farting. Yes,it’s simple and gives you the perasaan lega yg tidak bisa diungkapkan dengan kata2. So after Christmas will print out the letter and lipat2 buat roket and terbangkan bagai surat layang ke bilik boss and lari2 menyorok bawah meja.

Secondly,

Recently, a close friend of mine told me a sad news about her mother. Her mother has been diagnosed with stage 4 cervical cancer and now the cancer cells had spread to her lungs. She’s now trying her best to make her mum happy. Searching and buying every single medicine that might work for her mother. While I… complain how annoyed I am (sometimes) with my mum. *sepak muka sendiri*

I deleted my previous post about how I really wanted to move out of my mom’s house because I feel soooo bad complaining about my mum. I just couldn’t imagine my life without my mum. I have to be grateful because my mum is still alive to help me get through my life although if it means I have to hear all the bebelan everyday. Because I might miss all those bebelan one day.

Thirdly,

I am now obsessed with my sewing machine. I called it Lokman. Although sometimes Alyaa will cry her lungs out just because she doesn’t want to wear what I had bertungkus lumus sewn for her, I will never give up.. never surrender.. chewah.. but last week I was so busy and once again neglegted Lokman. He must be really sad.. sorry love.. later I’ll get my hands on you k?

Last but not least,

An old male friend of mine just delivered me the most shocking news. He is no longer attracted to his wife. I was so shocked because I never imagined those statements coming out of his mouth. He’s in love with another bitch. I know it’s not that weird. Biasela lelaki2 curang zaman skrg. But mamat tu?!! I looked up to him ok. He’s not the romantic type etc but I was so sure he’s nothing like my ex husband. Tp skrg?!! He’s about to leave his wife for another “fasha sanda + memey suhaiza”.. pity his wife..

I wish his wife will grow stronger day by day and can accept this as qada’ and qadar. Sesungguhnye doa org yg teraniaya itu dimakbulkan Allah.. Amin..

Till we meet again.. Adios my ~~imaginary~~ readers..

Regards,
Nadia

haPPy 3rD aNniVersaRy

2011-12-12T16:27:00.000+08:00

haPpy 3rd anniversary to me!! today notes the 3rd year i transformed from being puan to cik nurul nadia.. hihi.. it hasn't been an easy journey for me.. it's not easy to fight all the negative elements that has been surrounding my life over the past 3 years..

but guess what??? i survived.. i am now a better person.. although still not in shape but am a happier person.. i found new hobbies.. cooking, baking, knitting and sewing.. although am not good at it but so what.. as long as i can feel the excitement of seeing something that's made by ME, am happy..

so am inviting YOU to come join my haPpiNeSs

LazY + anGrY SuNdaY

2011-12-04T17:16:00.000+08:00

actually i was supposed to pick up my baju kurung moden that i tempah at this boutique in amcorp mall yesterday. but since my beloved WTV wasn't feeling well (battery kong) i had to pick it up today... and the journey begins............................

at first they text me to delay tarikh siap.. so i said ok la,it's okay janji siap.. then after a week they text me again.. this time ckp the fabric x cukup so need to change the design for the kain.. what the hell.. baju kurung moden je kot.. bukan nye wat dress mcm penari ballroom tu.. so fine la,i said ok la,buat la pape yg ptt..

then today was the moment that i've been waiting for... the moment i can sarung baju kurung moden yg sgt istimewa perjalanan hidupnye.. so early in the morning i went to pasar with mak and rushing2 ke amcorp mall afterwards.. ohhh.. minyak habes.. so singgah sebentar di shell n filled up my tank.. then paid rm1.10 for toll..

since this baju's perjalanan hidup so penuh duka ranjau, i had to face the traffic jam at federal highway.. but it's okay.. as long as i can sarung that baju kurung moden yg sgt istimewa perjalanan hidupnye..

as soon as i reached amcorp mall,i faced another difficulty.... this time is the most ultimate challenge.. i need to find parking on sunday afternoon at amcorp mall.. so i round2 for almost 1/2 an hour.. tadaaaaaaaaa... jumpe parking di tepian dinding.. so i pray so hard kereta x kena clamp..

then i cant find the lift.. so had to use stairs.. ohhh rupenye nk naik lift kne naik tangga dulu.. pttla x jumpe.. so i used the lift.. ting... bny lift menandakan diri ini sudah sampai di tingkat yg dihajati.. (ground floor je ekceli).. so we (i,mak and alyaa) need to walk so fast sbb x sabar nk jumpe baju kurung moden yg sgt istimewa perjalanan hidupnye..

the staff greeted me like she hasn't eaten for 10 days,so i just passed her the receipt.. and she came back with a small clear plastic with my fabric baju kurung moden yg sgt istimewa perjalanan hidupnye in it... n i was like "awat kecik bebenor die lipat baju aku? x letak span ke?"...

ohhhh rupe2nye dgn tanpa rase bersalah pekerja muke selenga+bebal+bengap itu pun berkata "sori dik,x jahit pn baju sbb kain x cukup.. akak refund jela ye".. F.R.U.S.T.... so i asked her why didn't she inform me earlier.. because if she did,i would've asked her to just bank in the money so that i don't have to go through all the hassle to get to amcorp mall..

and she said "entahlah,akak xde time tu.. ade kat pwtc (ade exhibition)"... and she repeatedly saying the reason why they can't finish my baju kurung was because of my size... mcm la am as big as giant.. selama ni kat tailor lain pn aku pkai kain 4m gak.. xpnah pon depa ckp x cukup.. ckp sekali,telingaku masih dpt menerima lg.. tp kalu dh sampai 5-6x.. mintak ampunla ye.. then bley plak she said the cashier don't have enough money nk refund.. td ko kate nk refund,ni kate x cukup dt plak??? FYI the baju kurung moden costs only rm120 n not rm1200..

so in order for me to menjaga standard utk tidak memaki hamun beliau di khalayak ramai (amcorp sgt rmai org) i just asked for the owner's phone number.. after menghilangkan stress di secret recipe dgn mhabiskan dt mak... i finally calmed down and start mengarang karangan english yg berbunyi sgt professional.. to say how disappointed i was with their service.. siap ade topic psl melayu mudah lupa etc.. i should've asked for her email intead.. sbb mcm x cukup plak rasenye td..

then pi beli acai berry and in car charger smbil mencuci mata melihat samsung galaxy tab 7.0, 8.9 and 10.1 inch.. ya Allah ya tuhanku,Kau jauhkanla setan2 yg sdg menghasutku ini.. Amin...

sesampai di rumah,i still feel lazy to start my work so main curler rmbut with alyaa.. after rmbut kami sudah seperti shakira hips don't lie, we play mekap2.. then apply nail colour then cuci balik then mandi then guling2 atas katil.. and now am writing another entry for my xde-sape-bace blog.. stilllll x buat2 keje.. haisy....

oklah.. sekian sahaja entry kali ini yg ditujukan khas utk my ~~imaginary~~ readers.. M.U.S.T S.T.A.R.T W.O.R.K N.O.W..

sincerely,
Yours Truly..

oNLy bRuNo maRs unDerstaNds Me

2011-12-04T01:10:00.000+08:00

if there's any award for the best procrastinator, it would be me. i've been singing lazy song by bruno mars in every seconds of my life every day because that's just the way i feel (besides the fact that i love that guy sooo much)

i was supposed to submit my work like ~~last week~~ last 2 weeks. but up until today, i haven't finished it yet. and yet i'm writing an entry for my xde-sape-bace blog -___- *sigh* and yesterday got to take 1/2 day leave because alyaa wasn't feeling well so i have to bring her to the doctor and of course i brought home all my work.... it's just that.........i.haven't.touched.it.yet. OMG what the hell is wrong with me??? i'm f*cking lazy pls slap me in the face..

as for my latest hobbies which are knitting and hand sewing (because i don't have sewing machine),will be abandoned for a while because i feel like singing lazy song by my beloved bruno mars until next year.. tq..

actually i have this new thing that i intend to do with my officemate, but i'm afraid my laziness will take over my life and my soul (so exaggerate, i know) and this new thing will be forgotten and remain as cita2 x kesampaian..

"dear nadia, why do you have to be so lazy??? i know you love bruno mars to bits that you're so into his song THE LAZY SONG, but i don't think he would want you to be like this.

please change to a better person. work hard so that you'll earn more (although your boss won't pay your OT and EPF) and then you can fly to watch bruno's concerts and bring alyaa with you of course.

please nadia, please exercise and slim down. i know bruno sang the song JUST THE WAY YOU ARE, but i think he'll only sing that to you if you weigh 45kg and have Adriana Lima's look.

i hope this letter will slap you back to reality. and don't forget to finish your work so that your boss won't kill you this monday"

MaRi BeRgUmBiRa

2011-11-29T00:35:00.000+08:00

In a day we have a total of 86400 seconds which might sound a lot but actually it’s not. Trust me. I spent most of my time doing inconsequential things. For example writing entry for my blog (yg xde sape bace) whereas I should be doing my payment n VOs..

Other than that is to spare my precious time holding grudge on the person whom might not even remember my full name. Since my beloved cousin posted a really motivated ceramah on motivasi ibu tunggal on my FB page, I just realized that all this while I’ve wasted most of my times thinking of the past. What a waste. Maybe I can finish knitting 26 sweaters if I put all my spare times to a good use.

So, since then I stop thinking about all the inconsequential things. And surprisingly I feel relieved. It feels like 100kgs of weight had been lifted off my chest although it doesn’t change the number on my weighing scale but still I feel a lot LIGHTER on the inside.

I answered his calls,whatsapps etc nicely whenever he calls Alyaa. And I feel happy. Suddenly I feel happy knowing that he’s happy being with someone that makes him happy. I’m happy to know that my child loves her stepmother and I hope his wife loves Alyaa like her own baby. I feel happy knowing that I can be happy about things that made me unhappy before. (haa pening plak bile bace balek ayat aku)

Whatever it is, life’s just too short to be wasted on the inconsequential things. I love my life (except my work because they don’t pay my EPF). My life is AWESOME. And I’m AWESOME.

Therefore I’m going to make a list of all the things I want to do in order to put my 86400 seconds to good use.

· Make more time for Alyaa (harus p main ball di padang selalu bersama2 Alyaa tercinta)

· Masterkan teknik2 knitting yg terhangat di pasaran

· At least Berjaya jahit seluar pajama alyaa

· Make my own bantal yg comel

· Derma darah

· Re-register as an organ donor.. xtau ape kesah yg register dedolu tuh..

· Cari kerja di kawasan sekitar rumah

· Kumpul designer itemS (means I don’t just want one but manyakkkkk)

· Simpan n kira duit slalu (sedikit bercanggah dgn my previous point-lihat di atas)

· Pk next vacation destination n siap kira bajet trus

· Finish my office work before berborak (x janji but will try)

· Blaja masak

· BE HAPPY

Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead

2011-10-18T07:45:00.000+08:00

Adele’s latest hits ‘someone like you’ really suits what I’m feeling right now… I know that I always said that I hate that bloody twerp so much. But who am I to cheat my own feelings.. Sometimes I miss him.. Not those times during our marriage.. But when he used to be my ‘the one’…. I miss how much he used to care about me.. I miss those happy times that we had b4.. b4 he changed into someone that I barely know.. I miss the way he used to act like kanak2 ribena just to make me laugh.. I miss those moments..

It seems so hard for me to believe it was him that promised that he won’t let anyone hurt me but he was the one that left me wounded instead..

I miss those times when he used to say that I was his lucky charm… That later turns to be his burden..

I hate the fact that he’s actually moved on.. I hate the fact how easy for him to erase our memories together.. How I wish I have those superpowers to completely erase him from my mind.. I wish I could stop hating him because the more I hate him, the more I think of him, the more I miss him….

I wish I had someone that I can talk to.. Someone that won’t judge me for being so stupid to miss him.. Someone that would say that it’s okay to feel this way at times..

I hope this is just a temporary feelings due to hormonal imbalance.. Need to find supplement to balance my hormones….. (-___-)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qemWRToNYJY&noredirect=1

emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo

rojak karim

2011-08-31T02:55:00.000+08:00

entry yg lgsg xde kene mengena dgn rojak karim ini ingin sy mulakan dgn Assalamualaikum, selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin dan selamat menyambut hari merdeka..

first of all,today is hari raya.. hari raya yg ketiga alyaa beraya tanpa seorg ayah n mmy alyaa tanpa seorg suami.. i know,last few days bru berikrar xnak merungut mengeluh etc.. tp sedey kot.. tgk kat fb sumer update status gembira beraya dgn suami.. upload pic raya yg complete satu fmly... tp pic raya alyaa?

alyaa ade mmy je.. tp xpela.. redha je.. so berikut merupakan watikah buat puteriku ALYAA NADIA..

mmy syg alyaa.. oldo org slalu kate mmy slalu tgk running man n x pedulikan alyaa tp deep down inside,mmy syg alyaa.. n mmy dh bertekad utk pastikan yg idop alyaa akan lg sempurna drpd idop kwn2 alyaa yg ade complete parents. sbb tu mmy hampir pengsan (tp kuatkan smgt n x jd pengsan) bile dpt tau kos registration utk tadika nowadays mencecah rm1k.. tp xpe,mmy akn usahakan tu.. insyaAllah pas raya ni mmy nk start wat side income..

oldo alyaa dh ade mak tiri skrg (daddy dh kawen dgn ppuan idaman die),tp mak tiri tak same tahap kasih syg die dgn kasih syg mmy kat alyaa.. maybe at some point alyaa akan rase yg mak tiri alyaa lg best sbb lg lawa,kaya n kononnye cool sbb of course la mmy yg lg byk marah alyaa,dh alyaa depan mata mmy kan? n mmy akan tegur pape benda salah yg alyaa buat sbb mmy syg alyaa.. in fact mak tiri alyaa la yg ruined alyaa pny mak bapak pny marriage (alyaa,lu pikirla sdri).. tp mmy x berape nak salahkan mak tiri alyaa sbb kalu daddy syg mmy dulu2,daddy x main kayu tiga.. btol x? tp xpela.. mmy fikir mcm ni je skrg:

Allah pertemukan mmy dgn daddy sbb Allah nak kurniakan Alyaa Nadia utk mmy..
Allah nak mmy sedar atas segala salah dan silap mmy dolu2..
Allah pendekkan jodoh mmy dgn daddy sbb mgkin daddy bukan yg terbaik utk mmy.. n mmy bukan yg terbaik utk daddy...
Allah sygkan mmy,sbb tu Dia uji mmy..
Allah bg Alyaa kat mmy same mcm Allah bg mmy kat nenek (mmy beza 10thn dgn aunty T n mmy bukan anak yg dirancang utk timbul lepas 10thn nenek pencen beranak) yakni utk temankan nenek time nenek tua sbb atok meninggal awl..
Allah nak kasi mmy teman nenek..
Allah nk mmy kuatkan smgt n buktikan mmy bukan insan yg lemah..

walaupon mmy byk bergantung kat nenek etc,tp rezeki mmy x pernah putus.. Alhamdulillah.. i believe this is what ppl say "rezeki anak".. InsyaAllah pasni bile mmy dh sng sket,mmy ley stand on my own two 'size 8' feet (luas permukaan kaki yg besar menjamin kestabilan)..

mmy bukan pentingkan running man, how i met ur mother or grey's anatomy dr alyaa,ni hnyla obsesi sementara shj.. bukan bersifat kekal.. pas abes satu season,mmy akan kembali fokus kpd alyaa k? mmy pn nk release tensen gak tau.. hrp alyaa phm..

n sbb alyaa jugakla mmy wat keputusan nekad tekad lg jitu utk kije dgn KPK.. sbb mmy nk idop yg stabil.. mmy nk simpan duit supaya mmy ley ~~beli iphone n designer bag~~ provide alyaa dgn kehidupan yg sempurna... mmy nk alyaa blaja at the best tadika (registration rm1k++ beb,yuran rm300 mthly),mmy nk alyaa pkai brg2 yg berkualiti n mmy nak bwk alyaa pi bercuti kat merata tempat (so oct ni mmy pi usha dulu tmpt2 menarik di spore,dh kumpul dt,mmy bwk alyaa plak)..

mgkin mmy x mampu nk bg ape yg daddy mampu bg kat alyaa cthnye pic raya yg complete (ade pic mak bapak n anak), tp mmy nk alyaa tau yg mmy syg alyaa.. next year insyaAllah mmy cukup duit nk beli rumah (kalau gaji naik n mmy x pi Isetan or parkson KLCC time sale).. dr segi duit insyaAllah xde mslh.. nnt mmy OT rajin2 n rajin2 wat bisnes dgn uncle fuad n seterusnye kembangkan bisnes mmy (x pk lg bisnes ape)..

mmy rase for the time being,kite duduk jela dulu rumah nenek.. sbb mmy ley pi kije dgn aunty G pasni.. jimat rm500 sebulan.. ley simpan dt beli ~~iphone & designer handbag~~ rumah.. ley wat blanje alyaa pi tadika bagus2.. n ley menyimpan utk masa depan alyaa..

oldo alyaa xde complete parent (mak tiri doesn't count here) tp alyaa tau kan yg sumorg syg alyaa.. sume ati sejuk je bile tgk alyaa (my assumption je tp sape yg x sejuk ati tgk alyaa,die x normal,so bek korg sejuk ati bile pandang alyaa)..

alyaa tau x,mmy rase kalula mmy x diuji smpi mcm ni,maybe mmy masih berada di takuk yg lame.. mgkin mmy x se determine mcm skrg nk majukan diri.. mmy dh plan mcm2 dh sbb mmy nk alyaa membesar n bangga ade mmy yg bernama NURUL NADIA... so harap2la segala misi.visi n cita2 mmy akan tercapai..

last but not least... I LOVE U ALYAA NADIA

don't tell me korg x sejuk ati tgk pic ni!!! sejuk kan? kan?

-end of watikah buat puteriku Alyaa Nadia-

-chapter baru-

lately ni mamat tu muncul kembali after tenggelam timbul for quite some time.. maybe pompuan2 idaman die dh x kuasa nk melayan die kot.. hmm harap2la die cepat dipertemukan jodoh so that he can stop fooling around wif my feelings.. tp i won't layan mcm dulula.. cukupla die pny perangai bingai yg sesuka ati je nk tenggelam timbul.. n guess what? sy nurul nadia rusli berjaya menyingkirkan perasaan syok yg ade dlm benak ati ni drpd terus menghuni ati suci murniku..

b4 ni my mission is to kawen dulu b4 daddy alyaa kawen.. tp since ddy alyaa dh kawen dulu,so kne ubahsuai misi.. misi sy ialah utk jd insan yg berjaya dunia akhirat.. demi alyaa n demi diri sdri.. can u imagine if i can achieve sgala impian ni.. layak masuk nona k.. or majalah wanita.. headline "ibu tunggal muda yg jelita dan berjaya".. then ley dpt award time hari wanita kebangsaan.. ok fine.. nk muntah ke tgk perkataan jelita tu? ade aku kesah? hehe..

since misi ni sgt mulia,i don't want to reveal bout it yet la.. nnt korg tggu jela i masuk nona k? huahuahua..

so secara konklusinye

i love my baby so damn much
5th sept 2011 ni anta surat resign n amek KPK pny offer letter
cancel sewa rumah
start menyimpan duit beli rumah......n iphone n designer handbag.. n jam baru.. n external hard drive utk isi citer running man etc.... n kasut kije berkualiti... n mcm2 lg la.. nnt wat entry lain khas utk senarai brg2 yg diingini..

ini minggu di bulan Ogos..

2011-08-18T16:41:00.000+08:00

Ini minggu di bulan Ogos merupakan 3rd week of Ramadhan... firstly secara tibe2 penyewa umah sewa mak ton nk kuar hujung bulan ni,which means i can now ley menyewa and ley merase what it feels like to live by my own.. plus monthly sgt murah compared to other flat within that area.. tp pas wat cost analysis n cost comparison yesterday, suddenly i think not worth it plak if menyewa.. bcoz i'll still have to allocate some money for gas oldo distance umah ke opis dh dekat.. sbb xkanla aku nk menapak from w.maju ke ampang kan?

plus i want to buy my own house.. since i can only count on myself.. some other ppl ley combine income dgn hubby mrk to own their dream house, but not me.. buat mase skrg, bile merancang mase depan i can only see myself n alyaa.. tiada anak2 tambahan, tiada suami n tiada bapa kpd alyaa... but i haven't decided yet whether i should sewa or just ulang alik sa ke ampang.. Dear Allah,pls show me signs..

last week i was offered a position in KPK and salary pon bagus jugak.. dhla OT mahal.. tp sayang la plak nk tgglkan opis skrg coz oldo boss sometimes garang,tp rajin ajar.. kwn2 opis pon baik gile.. ley gelak2 cm sewel.. x terlalu strict.. compared to tmpt kerja baru yg org dok war2kan sgt x best environment nye.. cume resume cantik gile la n OT yg pastinye akan membolehkan aku shoppg setiap bulan. Note:Megan avenue to 5 minit je kalu jalan laju2 ke klcc..

and yesterday plak boss tny whether i've made up my mind or not.. so i said belom lagi.. n guess wat? boss naikkan gaji yo!! same as KPK.. cume tu la,harap2 la boss stick to her words n bg gaji baru tu starting next month.. and tiada lg mslh payment... InsyaAllah.. rezeki bulan Ramadhan... rezeki Alyaa..

semoga Allah tabahkan hati ini untuk menempuhi segala dugaan. permudahkan segala urusan dan murahkan rezekiku.. Amin...

alangkah bestnyer...

2011-07-31T13:53:00.000+08:00

alangkah bestnyer..... kalau.....

slim and slender...
income lebey dr expenses...
byk duit...
x payah pk pasal duit...
dpt bendung otak & hati dr cepat benci org...
ade ramai kwn,ley teman pi tgk wyg,pi jenjalan dgn alyaa...
ade bf or someone that truly loves me for who i am...
xyah pk whether am gonna die as a single n lonely pathetic loser janda...
xyah pk mase depan... bile nk ade rumah,bile nk ade kehidupan yg stabil n ade savings yg xperlu dikorek setiap akhir bulan..
xyah pk where i'll be in the next 10 years.. seriously xde perancangan kot...
alyaa dh besar nnt,ley teman mmy pi jenjalan...
boss byr mileage n ot tetiap bulan instead of tggu pekerja dh nyawa2 ikan bru nk byr mileage...
ade peminat.. or ade org yg suke kite... bru rase cm muda remaja...
xde hutang...
ade org tolg setelkan hutang...
ade org amek berat kat kite...
ade iphone,bb torch,samsung galaxy tab,ipad 2,samsung ape tah yg kuar kat iklan maxis tu yg iklan ayam bertelur tu.. lupe model ape..
i can feel content of my life..
i can learn how to bersyukur..

rungutan

2011-04-20T14:29:00.000+08:00

today is my 7th day working at this new unstable-aku-x sabar-nk benti office.. i have to wake up 4.45 am everyday n pay rm10.60 for toll and i just isi minyak last sunday n now tinggal satu bar.. wahhh.. so clever of me krn berfikir "oh xpela,nk belajar perlu berkorban"..

and today they just informed me that they dont pay for socso because there's only 2 staffs in this office.. one QS and one clerk... x pernah plak dgr akta yg mengatakan kalu 2 staffs no need to pay for socso.. when i asked "what if i die in the office or mati kat site?" they replied "jgnla doa kamu mati,kamu muda lg"

on the dot rase nk bunuh diri sbb i left my soooooooooooooooo stable sycal berhad for this????????? yeah working at sycal berhad is not that fun,i know but it's secured... i got parking allowance,hp allowance,mileage rm0.60/km.. 5.31 dh start engine blek umah n berat x naik byk bcoz there's only one halal gerai kat situ... here? everyday oso dunno what to eat bcoz dikelilingi kedai mkn..

and one more thing,suddenly ter-rapat balek plak dgn itu mamat.. waaaaaaaaaa... (pls dont kill me nabby)why is it so hard for me to get rid of u??? why oooooo why???? haisy... ok2.. this wud be the last chance for him... one more taik,no more nadia ok?

ok story on bandung.. akhirnya perkara2 berbangkit like transport n penginapan finally settled n plg penting within bajet.. huahuahuahuahua.. so skrg the only thing utk dirisaukan ialah mane nk cri duit lebey utk shoppg? and cemane nk jd slim b4 bandung supaya dpt shoppg baju? hny mslh kedua dpt diselesaikan yakni dgn shopping baju alyaa je..

and tomorrow is alyaa's 2nd bday!!! yeay!!! and guess what? i dont have the fulus to organize bday party for her.. sob sob... next year ye alyaa? kite buat parti buih sekali...

and please la weiiiiii.. nak kawen... jom google ready stock lelaki single sedia dinikahi...

UpDatEs

2011-04-04T13:34:00.000+08:00

Istana Budaya
- yesterday i went to Istana Budaya to watch lat kg boy theatre.. n it was my 1st time ever tgk teater ok.. so smlm jakun nk mampos sbb almaklumla festaim byr rm43 utk tgk cite.. even b4 this i usually think for daysss whether i should spend rm12 to watch movies or not..

but i tell u aaaaa.worth it ok bcoz u get to see zeee ensem hans isaac (oldo besar semut sbb tiket mura so dok kat upper circle) and u'll be amazed on the stamina of the pelakon teater bcoz they have to sing n dance n act.. imagine urself doing so.. bru bjalan nak ke parking kete pn dh xlarat nk borak sbb out of breath.. hihi...

owh yaaa,i went to IB with awin n laili.. both pn sengal so i ended up being sengal for the whole day yesterday.. n it was fun to feel sengal on wiken since weekdays stress keje.. so to whoever suffers hypertension or depression,pls be sengal on wiken.. it helps a lot..

extra asshole
- i already have one asshole but maybe am an xtra lucky person bcoz i have two assholes now.. haa,kagum x? satu berguna when i want to merembes bhn toksik but the other asshole is the one who helps in the addition of toxin in my body..

i dunno y la that other asshole is so stubborn,even when i ignored like totally ignored him,he still wants to update me with his scandal2-poyo-love life.. i mean,what type of loser wud be so proud telling others yg die ade byk scandal.. isn't it suppose to be something yg ptt dimalukan?

i'd rather be a loner than a loser.. memainkan ati org lain is not nice.. treat ppl as u would like urself to be treated..

wo ai ni
- if ur not willing to hear my story,dont bother askingla.. dont ask me something like "nadia dgn sape skrg?" pastu bile berkongsi cerita,u give me those faces yg mintak penampar tu.. muke "huh? gemok gedempol cm ko pn ade kwn lelaki ke?".. even if u dont say it out loud,i can still hear ur ugly face screams ur curiosity tu ok? i hv 6th sense.. sekian..

1/4 mata
-Allah gave u 2 eyes,and some even lucky to have 4 eyes like myself-rabun itu satu rejeki, so pls use it wisely.. jgn pndg org lain 1/4 mata juz bcoz u think u r better than any one else.. bcoz u r not pn.. maybe today,am not as terer as u but who knows,with guidance and kerajinan,one day i'll become a much more extra ordinary hot & spicy better QS than u r.. we cant predict our future..

resume
-today is my 2nd last day working with prima ace and my 2nd last day working as a QS utk contractor.. bcoz...... jeng jeng jeng.. after this i'll be working with a consultant.. quite nervous,but i'll try my best to handle it.. harap2 ade OT... huahuahua..

after soooooooooooo long

2011-04-03T02:00:00.000+08:00

heh!! it's 2011 already and i already forgotten about this blog until my dear beloved nabby brought it up just now..

so i was being so rajin and try to generate a new password so that i can start blogging agin.. yeay!!! yeah rite,as if there's anyone out there bother to read my blog..

but so what aite?

so,i hope i can magically develop kerajinan to update this blog at least 3 times a week..

just wait and see..

2009

2009-12-29T16:25:00.000+08:00

Within few days more we will be saying goodbye to 2009 and hello to 2010. I don't have any new year's resolution like always because I haven't accomplished my previous resolutions. So my aim is to settle all my previous resolution before I make a new one.

Just now I went to see dr.norizan regarding the correction of my final draft. then on my way home, fuad called and said he wanted to meet me somewhere near uitm. and guess wut? he's married and he invited me for his reception on this 10th of january. am happy for him because he's de only male friend that i trust. he can be considered as my male bestfriend. just hoping dat he will not waste shana's life like wut izham did to me. but i know fuad is a much2 more better than him.

so i gez,i'll be getting more and more wedding invitations after this. perhaps.

hmmmmmmmm...

2009-12-08T12:21:00.000+08:00

i rili2 feel menyampah reading updates about sakuskn ape tah kat facebook tu... seriously i don't believe that money can come to u effortlessly... although i do wish that i can earn thousands of ka ching by just mengadap facebook.. but i know that it's such a nonsense... easy money konon... that's just the lifestyle of org malas yg nk kaya cepat and bodoh of course... no business tp just invest rm3200 then suddenly jd kaya raya (in juz a a week?)... tp xtau mane pi duit2 tu.. labut ke mane x tau... buat bisnes ape xtau.. tah haram ke tak... bullshit ok? BULLSHIT!!!

lainla kalau berniaga thru facebook etc.. but no... just invite some stupid ppl join then ask them to invest on sumting u have no idea about n then gedebak gedebuk duit masok... yeah rite... itu sumer adalah penipuan ok.... u want money, u work for it... i wonder how can these ppl actually believe that there is such thing as easy money... kalau mcm tu,xde dh org yg ader financial problem ok? no need to waste time spend 5 years utk dptkan degree... jus keje bodo2 as long as dpt kumpul rm3200 then berhenti keje n labur kat that stupid pyramid scheme and tadaaaaaaaaa u r filthy rich...

we don't live in fairytales ok... this is reality dude... face it... nk duit, keje la bodo!!! am so not going to terpedaya dgn pic2 financial statement depa tu... cheh!!!!!

ok.... marah dh reda dh.. am cool now...

btw,last saturday alyaa kene sunat... huhu... since alyaa is a truly seriously budak baik, she only cried like for 4 seconds... see,am so proud of her... the doctor oredi recognised her sbb bile doctor saw her in the waiting area,the doctor was like "ehh!!! alyaa nadia,pggl die masok"... hehe... ok nadia... stop riak ok...

my precious alyaa skrg dh pandai clap her hands, bye bye, salam and now still learning how to give flying kick ehh silap... i mean flying kiss... and now alyaa cannot fit in her rocker anymore sbb dh pandai guling2 so in order to avoid accidents that might cause me to kill myself because of guilt, i'm training her to sleep in her baby court... so cute ok die tido dlm tu... if only i have a husband that can stand beside me (like in movies) and watch alyaa sleep... if only alyaa can have her own room... haisy..... never mind loh...

boring

2009-12-04T13:21:00.000+08:00

i want a real job.. or i mean a job where i dont have to go to fspu in order to complete my task... phm x ayatku ini? this week n next week i might have to spend my whole week wat keje bumbung fspu... haisy... so sesape nk offer keje kpd diriku.. jgn segan silu k.. hehe...

btw, jaja... if u're reading dis,pls invite me to read ur blog... my life is not complete w/o reading ur blog... hehe.. sile jgn pengsan or sawan akibat terharu.... hehe...

LiFe....

2009-11-06T11:00:00.000+08:00

you just can't have everything you want in life.. i might not have a loving husband whom i can lean to when am sad, but God gave me a lovely daughter that can light up my life and family that will always have my back and i am surrounded with friends that can always lend me their shoulder to cry on.. and most important is God blessed me with good health so that i can learn to appreciate how valuable my life is..

some might not be blessed with good health, but God provide them with supporting families and friends that will always have their back.. that is why we should trust that Allah itu maha adil... and also that is why we should always be grateful that everyday God gave us another day for us to live our meaningful life... Alhamdulillah...

NeW cHapTer of A NeW LiFe PerhaPs?

2009-10-19T17:38:00.000+08:00

i found it so damn tiring if your whole life is dedicated juz to please the people around you that never appreciates you... seriously, life is no fun when everybody thinks that they have the right to take control of your life as if you are a lifeless human being that doesn't know how to live your life... i'm 23 already okay.. i may have done some mistakes in the past but that doesn't make me a moron... am no moron okay? so please stop treating me as if am no human... and please stop treating me like am a brainless child... am not brainless and am definitely not a child...

i have the absolute rights to defense myself when others accused me of things that i didn't do... defending myself doesn't make me someone with attitude... i juz had to do what i had to do.... don't call me stupid, stubborn, asshole etc when you, yourself are much worse than me... okay?